May 16 2016
I'M SO SORRY.
Heh, such a generic title, but I couldn't think of anything better to name this.
Alright, let's start from the begginning, she and I were friends, best friends, in fact, she was probably the only person I considered an actual 'friend' in my entire, miserable life, and I blew that away, I destroyed that, by letting my selfishness take over, "Why?" You may ask, well, I'll tell you how it happened.
One day, this girl, my friend, I won't say her username or actual name for privacy purposes, so let's just call her 'May' for now, sent me a private message in our main meeting site, she was freaking out, telling me that one of our (female) friends just confessed to her, the main problem is, both of us are straight, our friend, let's call her 'June', is an asexual biromantic, none of us have a problem with that, in fact, we support it, however, May didn't return her feelings. And because she's too goddamned nice to just reject her on the spot, she came running to me, which I really hope she hadn't, since that's what destroyed our friendship, we chatted for a while, I gave her advice, we RolePlayed for another while, and then we both left the chat, some time later, June sent me a private message, telling me that she confessed to May, I pretended to not know anything, however, she told me to tell May that she accepted her feelings as a friend, and just confessed to get it off her chest, I said that I would, but my stupid self forgot to, or maybe I just subconsciously didn't want to for whatever reason, and once I realized, it was too late, everything went downwards after that.
You see, a day or so after that, May asked me to chat with her, and we did, not soon after we started, she told me that, instead of rejecting June, she asked her out. I guess something in me just... exploded after that, I abruptly left, with a simple message saying I was done, and then I sent her a PM with a massive text wall of a rant insulting her, calling her fake, horrible things like that, I wish that I hadn't been so stupid and blind in rage, at the final paragraph I sent her an ultimatum, either she broke up with June, and we stayed "friends", or she kept being someone who "she wasn't" and I left for good, I sent the note.
We didn't talk for a few days after that, deeply regretting what I did, I refused to log back in, gathering enough courage, I eventually did, and both May and June sent me PMs, June's message said that she broke up with May, I'm not sure if she actually knew what I did, but I guess it doesn't matter now, May's message was what broke our friendship, the dreaded words, "We need to talk.", so we exchanged a few PMs kinda sorting things out, we somewhat patched our friendship, all was supposedly forgiven, but as of these last few weeks, she's refused to talk to me, maybe she's sick or busy with exams, but one thing's for sure, I don't think we can be true friends again.
So, after all, I just want to say, to both June and May, I'm sorry.